On the day before the scheduled pregnancy blood test on 15th October, I listened to a mandarin worship song (video on page 9) and I started to cry sadly. I told God that I had done what I could in the past 1.5 years and with these two remaining embryos, may His will be done unto me. I submit the outcome totally to God.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I wept uncontrollably and asked for God to strengthen my marriage instead, if it is not His will for hubby and I to be parents in this lifetime. I asked God to show me how I should continue to exhibit my faith, as I wondered how to continue to be the salt and light before my non-believing family.